Gear

I have had photography gear on my mind for the last month because of recent and upcoming work. Having a 5D for nearly two months was an opportunity that pushed me over a photography slump. I had the urge to go out and shoot when it was in my hands. That could have been because I had limited time with it but I do know that it opened doors a little wider. I feel bad not wanting to shoot with my D40 lately because I know that I can create beautiful photos with it as well. I got spoiled and now I want to upgrade.

I have been looking and bodies and lenses to determine my dream gear and the gear that I hope to upgrade to soon. Both bills are expensive. I could argue that the upgrade would be paid eventually by incoming work but I know that I won’t be shooting enough to justify that argument. I have told myself that buying high quality products means I won’t need to upgrade in the near future. That’s an easier point to defend but I still can’t justify the cost.

I have engagement shoot this weekend and another wedding booked this fall. I also have two wedding bids out but I don’t anticipate them panning out. I do anticipate a handful of other jobs in the second two-thirds of the year. That isn’t a lot of income.

Beth & I are trying to pay off credit cards and loans so adding to the burden isn’t right either. So I have been thinking about creating a business to separate the expenses. That will happen soon but it doesn’t make financing easier. I don’t know how financing for business expenses would differ from me personally asking for the same funds.

I want to take another step. I can’t take a huge step but don’t want to take two steps. It’s frustrating.

The right answer is to buy a little lighting gear that I can afford and continue to push my D40.

Right now I would be happy with an an autofocusing, fast lens. My little 50 creates beautiful photos but manually focusing is painful, especially if two people are waiting on my to take the shot.